OPEN LETTER

Dear Me, I was meaning to write to you since long, but some restraining force kept me from doing so, and that restraining force was no other than the verbal stoning of the people around you and me.But you had enough of it, I had enough of it.....now its high time that your best friend [...]

CAPTIVATION-“Is my body healing or soul falling apart?”

Why do they call it a “crush”? Is it because that is the way you feel when he doesn’t feel the same in return! Well maybe.... But the concern every word of his reflects, his anger when he says to me that I should not let anyone make fun of me, his dominance over me [...]

The Wait

Its different today! Earlier I loved the morning sun rays to fill my room, to pierce my eyes, just because I knew he would be there to close the curtains for me, come to my bedside and gently kiss my forehead to wake me up. But today I don’t want this cruel sun stoning at [...]

“LOVE-is it breaking or creating me?” 8-When will my heart not skip a beat on seeing him , and my brain smile?

I keep on peeping inside my heart to look for an answer to a constant question revolving in my mind. A question which does not let me get a peaceful sleep, a question which at times questions my existence, a question which I fear that would remain unanswered for the ultimate. “When will my heart [...]

“LOVE-is it breaking or creating me?” 7-IN THE PARALLEL WORLD

What if we are in the parallel world? Where I am not the way I am, Where he is not the way he is, Where my heart will not skip a beat on seeing him, Where my soul would no more carry a “no trespassing” board for everyone else but him, Where I would not [...]

“LOVE-is it breaking or creating me?” 6-I AM TAKEN, SO WHAT IF HE IS NOT!

I am proud to hold such feelings which do not require a fueling system to power its existence in my heart. The only driving force are my feelings in its purest form and nothing else.And on the firm grounds of those feelings and due to the respect I hold for those I cannot allow anyone [...]

“LOVE-is it breaking or creating me?” 5-TWO BODIES WALKING OR TWO SOULS TALKING?

I had never expected him to take me on dinner dates, rather he took me out for walks along the deserted and not so explored roads. Just a call on my phone and he asking me,”Where are you?....wanna join me for a walk?” and I used to get one more chance with this every time [...]

LOVE-is it breaking or creating me? 4-WHAT TO CHOOSE, PAIN FOR TWO OR JUST ONE?

  My eyes were swollen and red because of crying for hours, still a thought was peeping into my head again and again, whether he is fine or is he disturbed because of whatever happened today? Maybe that’s the reason i replied him with a positive on chat when he asked me if I was [...]

“LOVE-is it breaking or creating me?” 3-DON’T MAKE ME FEEL HOLLOW, I AM ALREADY EATEN UP!

  Whatever be the situation I try to be strong and never let firm ground slip under my feet. But the only situation when my nerves are not under my control is when I have to regret my own decisions. I being a rationale person, for the first time in my life followed the echoes [...]

“LOVE-is it breaking or creating me?” 1-IS MY BODY HEALING OR SOUL FALLING APART?

Why do they call it a “crush”? Is it because that is the way you feel when he doesn’t feel  the same in return! Well maybe....But the concern every word of his reflects, his anger  when he says to me that I should not  let anyone make fun of me, his dominance over me while fighting, his child-like smile that turned disastrous days into sweet memories, his laughter that makes me  realize what is the thing that I want in my life....I wish all these were absent in my life!  These things make me feel empty and hollow from deep inside and a voice loud and clear  shouts in my ears”NOT IN YOUR REACH !”. Life would have been much easier to deal with if you did not ask me that question, and I, being in the drift, had not answered it so easily. Why on earth did you ask the name...and why did I tell you, God knows! After confessing  deep secrets hidden inside this tiny soul, believe me it was not that easy to say, “It’s not  possible between us”, and to add to my troubles you asked me “Why do you think it’s not possible?” with a look as if you were reading my soul by peering through my eyes. I just  had to break the eye contact, else the gravitation governed by your eyes would have pulled more secrets apart from me.The dilemma running through my mind like a hurricane,  when I wished that you feel everything by yourself without me intruding into your  thoughts, and on the other hand I was scared to accept my own feelings and my fake  thoughts-that nothing has happened- continued to prevail over my feelings. You thought that your promise to be friends always and let nothing turn awkward between us would cheer me up, but my heart said that you were wrong for the first time in your life, rather it made my  heart scatter into pieces. We were good friends, still I don’t know what forced something to change between us. The loud laughter had turned into eye contacts and a smile followed by lowering of eyes from   both the sides, the friendly touch suddenly began to soothe injuries, the pain started and  ended into two different souls, the mention of a name startled me, the wait for a like on  Facebook brought more excitement, the smile was of a different kind that came from  reading old messages. This may sound insane but the accident i met once turned into a memory not because of  the cuts and bruises, but because of you standing by my side and soothing them. I don’t  know the reason but I was on the seventh sky when the mental trauma got healed in a  moment after you touched me. The feelings came all over again and I was confused  whether my physical wounds were healing or soul falling apart! The more I try to resist  those feelings, the more caring you become. You know !...you have to stop this, else my  brain and heart would soon begin a war against each other.